Past Life

by DenMother

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i don't know you but that's okay i just thought that i would say i wanna take my finger tips and trace all the lines i see on your face i don't think i know my way but i been here before that's what they say would be nice if you would stay but it's okay either way i haven't slept in a lonely bed since i stopped living outside of my head you don't know me now but that's okay i still think you got a good face
and if you had all you wanted would i be nothing to you? but if i'd stayed the way you wanted would i be nothing would i be something? shirts off shirts off and i'll never feel it and a kiss in darkness and i'll never know it if we had left it the way you fought it would you see something in me? if i'd been quiet the way i fought it would i feel something inside of nothing? would i feel something for you?
well my heart is an iceberg i went over it all with a fine tooth comb and a slippery snail well she told me to just take it easy with you and i'm sort of asleep laying in my bed inside some kinda weird dream with a bunch of sunflower ladies saying you were waiting at the baggage claim for me and i'm wearing a softness pink as the light that glows tonight when the wrinkles in time match all the wrinkles that i notice around my eyes and i swear you got a fucking smile that could melt a fucking iceberg
well it's not likely that i ever loved you and i'm not sure if i'm really sorry we were both to blame but you lay the blame on me it's not likely that i ever loved you
i forgotten what your shape is my mouth full of something like spit and seeing you crashing into from all sides why, can you let me go? on this day that i want you close? makes me feel so sick as a mass on the floor my mouth full of something like spit left alone over you all over the floor why can you go? on this day i want you close?
i will tell you of my death: i came across the wide open land all i had was my shame in my hands i left you behind the one great mistake of my life i walk alone i walk alone and i looked up and the sun was in the middle of the sky oh my lay down and close my eyes to die


This is a scrapbook - each song is a person/place/thing from the last 10 years. xox

Previously released through Patient Records in Fredericton NB:

"We're happy to bring you new and collected work by DenMother. Since moving to Fredericton Sabarah Pilon has established herself as a strong presence in the region's surprisingly vibrant electronic music community. Building upon nearly a decade's worth of experiments, recording, and life experiences born of her displacement between Ontario, Nova Scotia, and New Brunswick, DenMother continues to evolve and and explore new textures and processes to communicate the primal human events that inspire the songs.
Nature. Human Nature. Machines. They all come together here."


released December 1, 2018

Cover photo: Angela Lewis
Thank you: to each of you in each of these songs


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