Then Now Forever

by DenMother

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i have been a thousand men and women like you where we have walked the desert and lived along the ocean floor in a blanket of galactic ice cubes where all our babies have been born we will meet again and again and again and each time i will love you just a little more until our hearts can no longer take the warmth and exploding into each other's arms we become the gods of the stars
and maybe i wasn't every clear about the way you make me feel and now i'm standing all alone out here why don't you want me with you in there had a meeting with my demons we went over all the details they said i could've done it better (i'm sorry) they said i should've never said that (i'm sorry) they said i might've been clearer (i'm sorry) they said i could've acted nicer (i'm sorry) you were someone i was hoping to believe in you were someone i was wanting to let in well look at this messy heart fuck it i'll do it on my own then
with a heart as heavy as a night i'm fine no i'm fine in a night that's heavy as a lie i'm wide awake tonight it's fear she said it's killing us both it's fear just let me fucking say the words is a heart that's filling up another heart is a hand that's filling up another hand
i fell today into the pattern of the past i forgot that i told myself that i'd stop doing that so i drain you from my fingertips like wax and i close my eyes in a deaf silence i sat and i have walked by our timelines for a thousand lives and each one they have ended in our demise and in each i've reminded you that i'm here but this time i'll try to see it from your side and you are here to teach me all about being all alone
i have never been good at keeping it i'm always the safest on the outside looking in a lonely little life i should just learn to live it already i don't think that i truly fit it i don't belong here with all these pussy cats i don't fit in here i can't seem to figure it out i don't belong so lone so long i'm not part of the pack
your words, your eyes are sometimes somebody else's you touch, then you hide you bride to the night oh sorry i hit you in the head with all those means things that i said your mother never taught you how to fight but your father taught you how to fight too well that's right you hear me scream don't say a word, no i'm here, can't you tell never say a word, no oh fuck it happened again i opened the very thing that i told myself that i wouldn't and the world is shutting down outside, and also deep within
if time is a lie then why am i seeing myself and i am a dog you can't teach an old dog new tricks and i am a dog let sleeping dogs lie we're all afraid together it's time to remind myself i'm an island forever


some kind of love songs, sort of


released March 26, 2020

written, recorded & produced by Sabarah Pilon


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DenMother Fredericton, New Brunswick

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